Beauty from Ashes Part 3 { 2 videos}

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Hi!!!

I've been a little MIA on here and there is a reason for that.  I've really been in prayer about what direction the Lord is having me take with this blog. And He is leading to me share about my testimony,  and my marriage. Which this is definitely out of my comfort zone, but I know that He will see me through this. And He has encouraged through many that it is for His good. And if we could help just one marriage, then it was all worth it.

So with that, I am going to share the last part of Beauty from Ashes Part 3 {2 part video}. If you have not read any of my previous posts of "Beauty from Ashes". I will post them below so you can read those first and then watch the videos below.


Read these first, if you have not done so yet. The videos will then make sense.
Beauty from Ashes Part 1
Beauty from Ashes Part 2

"Beauty from Ashes - Part 3" { video 1 of 2}

"Beauty from Ashes - Part 3" {2 of 2}

If you would like prayer, or encouragement....please either leave me a comment below or click on the contact me tab above. I would love to pray for you. 

    and provide for those who grieve in Zion—

to bestow on them a crown of beauty

    instead of ashes,

the oil of joy

    instead of mourning,

and a garment of praise

    instead of a spirit of despair.

They will be called oaks of righteousness,

    a planting of the Lord

    for the display of his splendor.

Isaiah 61:3(NIV)

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 Blessings,
 
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Beauty from Ashes! Part 2

{If you have not read Part 1 click here and read it first}

I still tear up when I think back of how the Lord spoke to me 12 years ago. I was a broken, young girl, single mother, divorced, wretched soul, who did not know what she was going to do. All she wanted was to be and feel loved. That's all she wanted and would she ever find it? Let's find out.......

I was so excited after that beautiful day of Easter 2000. I remember telling my mom and telling my family, but they thought I was crazy {some still think I am -lol}!! I even called Michael he thought I was crazy as well. I was at church everyday of the week except for Wed. It was my home and the people were my family. We were very small back then and it was like my second home. I gleaned and learned as much as I could. My void was being filled to the top, to overflowing.....it was so overwhelming, in a good way. All I could do was love back. But I still had struggles and I still had the divorce to deal with. This part I hadn't surrendered to the Lord. I wanted to have control of this part. He {my-ex/husband now} wasn't going to get any control of this part of my life. I was in control of it and no one else, it was the only control I had. But God kept tugging at my part to surrender it to Him. It would take me three years to finally surrender. I remember I started to pray "God change my heart...change me Lord." I remember talking to a friend and she had asked if I would ever get back with him and I said never..it would totally have to be God. It was just impossible to me.

God started doing a work in my heart shortly after that, He was changing my heart and little did I know what He was about to ask of me. He wanted me to ask Michael if he would join me and our daughter to an amusement park. I had an extra ticket and it was Christmas, it was the least I could do. It was Christmas time and I'm sure our daughter wanted us together. Me and Michael hardly spoke to eachother it was just akward. Michael had wanted 50-50 custody of her,  because I had full custody of our daughter. I told him No everytime, I wrestled with this for awhile, and that would mean I lose control. And one day the Lord started to tug on my heart and He said.....give him 50-50.  I struggled and fought with the Lord and I finally surrendered it to Him. And so after the Amusement park we went to eat and that is when I told him I would give him 50-50. But something was happening in my heart, that I wasn't fully aware of. When I told Michael that I was giving him 50-50 I saw the joy in his eyes and on his face.  My hardened cement heart.....began to break, peices began to chip away, it was softening. What was going on with me I thought? I could not control it and I don't think I wanted to. Because love was filling that part of my heart that I kept hidden and locked for so long.  I was very good at blocking out certain things in my life and having no feelings or emotions for my divorce. I never grieved it, I never thought about it, I just tucked it back way deep, deep, deep in my heart and put bolt locks on it, and so many other locks on it. No one could get in. It was too never be open because I had control over this door

I had finally let go of what God had wanted me too. He wanted full access to my heart. And I gave it to Him. It was one of the hardest things I had to do. I remember there was a day where I just cried over my divorce and all that I did. I asked God for forgiveness.....I did not know what was going on with my heart. But I could feel the cement peices chipping away. God whispered something to me again...."Ask Michael Back for a second chance". My flesh started to puff up I just gave him back 50-50 now this. I said back with shock..."Are You crazy God?" {exact words}, I said " Did You forget what we went through in our divorce?". Did you forget all those hurtful things he did, Did You forget Lord!!!!Did you forget how ugly our divorce was, Did you forget how much I hate this man and how much he hates me" I just gave him the last bit of control I had and you want me to do what? At first I was angry. But my heart God was changing. Deep, deep down inside I wanted it.....I wanted my family back. But my pride kept getting in the way.

God so gently whispered to me " My daughter I want this, I want to take it from you won't you give me the key? Lord, I can't....it hurts too much Lord. What if, what will happen, I can't Lord, I can't. God gently and so lovingly whispered to me Trust me.....trust me my daughter. And I began to weep, and weep uncontrollably. And then I gave him the key and He wiped it all clean. I cried and cried and surrendered. My heart was soft again.....The words walk by faith not by sight, walk by faith not by sight kept going over and over in my head. Trust me........trust me

And so I did, a week later in December of 2002 I made a phone call to Michael. I was so very nervous and didn't know what I was going to say. So I asked him to meet me for lunch. I wrestled with it for awhile, all these thoughts were running through my head. Would he accept what I'd have to say. Woudl he think I'm crazy. So we met and he got straight to it, why did you call me here and so I asked him " I want to ask you for a second chance?" I want to ask you back? The look of shock crossed his face. Oh no, what is he going to say. Oh my goodness what did I just do? Those seconds of silence seemed like an eternity. He had thought I was going to tell him I was getting married or I was pregnant. He didn't expect what I had just said. What is Michael going to say???

To be continued.....I don't mean to keep you in suspense but this is where I must stop. Come back soon for part 3.

Thank you for stopping by. I pray that my testimony will minister to you. Would you surrender all to God, all of what He is asking of you. Do it, you will blessed beyond measure I promise.




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Beauty from Ashes! Part 1 & its our Anniversary ~04/13/2003

This is the most recent March 2012

    Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God."

Mark 10:27^{this

Today the Lord has blessed me with 9 years of re-marriage to my amazing husband. Yes, I said remarriage. With God all things are possible, even my broken marriage some 9.5 years ago.

I will be sharing with you, as the Lord leads, my journey of faith and hope, my walk, my ups my downs and all arounds.

Part One of God's story for me....

It was a hot summer day in July of 1996, me and my best friend Dede were getting ready to go on a double date. I remember telling myself this is the last double date, I'm done. My guy friend at the time invited us out on a double date with his friend from out of town. My friend was to be meeting his friend, who was here on leave {vacation} from the army. Me and my guy friend were just going to hang out, I did not like him that way. But when my eyes first set them on Michael {my friends friend - who was to be the blind date for my friend}.....I was in love. We picked up my friend and off we went. At the end of night I asked my friend, "so what you think of him {hoping and praying she didn't like him"}. She said "oh he is so not my type". I was jumping with joy inside! So that night, after they dropped us off, I called my guy friend and asked for another date with Michael, but with just me this time.

I was only 17, barely going to be 18, Michael had just turned 23. My whole family had just moved out here from California to Vegas, just one year before. All 10 of us were cramped in a 2 bedroom condo {apartment}. At this point in my life I was ready to move out and settle down{I know so young - but I had to grow up quick when I was younger}.  I spent every waking hour with Michael while he was here on leave. And by the time he had to go back we had talked about marriage.

Little did this young girl know that she was going to embark on something that would be so foreign to her and would change her life forever. I finally turned 18 the next month, and Michael was making numerous trips out here from California. After doing this for 7 months we had decided to go down to the Little White Wedding chapel and get "hitched", so on March 30th, 1997 we did. We also decided that if it didn't work out we would get a divorce. I really don't think I knew what divorce was anyway. And we got "hitched", I called my mom on the phone....."Mom.... I just got married!!!!" mom replied "WHAT!!!!" Dad wasn't to happy about it either. This was the thing in vegas to do, you come here to get "hitched". But what did I care I was married and I knew that this hunk was going to love me forever and ever, at least, so I thought. I thought for sure he was now going to fill my empty void in my heart that I have been searching for all my life.

There was alot more to his story and being so young I didn't care I was young and in love. Two months go by after our marriage and I find out I'm going to be expecting and only a few weeks pregnant. I am delighted with excitement, but so scared all at the same time. I was only 18, brand new adult, brand new wife and now a soon to be brand new mother. Did I do the right thing, what did I get myself into???? Yes, this man loves me and I love him and thats all that mattered. But will my empty void be filled?

Nine{9} months later our baby girl is born, I thought for sure she is what is going to fill my empty void in me. That longing for someone to just love me, for me. I thought marriage was going to do that but I soon found out it didn't. He failed me so many times, and I failed him so many times. We began hurting each other with words. So, I thought for sure this sweet baby girl would bring me joy, would she fill that empty void that my husband could not fill? But will my empty void be filled?

I soon found out that she definitly filled my love tank, not my void, but I was still missing something. That empty void was still there. The emptyness, the longing for something more. Our marriage was very rocky and unstable. It was spinning out of control and fast. I didn't know what I was doing, yet alone be a wife and mother. I was barely 19 at this point. And a year and a half later, many many tears shed, many fights fought, many battles. I began to search to fill my empty void and I tried to fill that empty void in ways I swore I would never do. I was unfaithful to my husband.........

I thought this would fill that empty void, but it didn't. It made things worse and made things complicated and what did I just do?!!! What have I become, this was not supposed to happen.  Can I please, please take it back. No. A couple months later I leave, divorce papers are filed against me. I'm 21 and what has become of my life. I ruined it, I ruined my family. I'm feeling more empty now more then ever. And my empty void is still there, will it ever be filled. I was sooo broken, nothing I knew at this point could possibly fill that void. It was useless, and I thought I was worthless and I was done with life. Nothing mattered anymore. So I tried filling that empty void with other wordly things. Nothing is filling this void inside of me. Nothing. I had no hope, I was stressed from the divorce, I was so angry with myself of how it turned out. It wasn't supposed to be this way. What was I going to do and who was I going to turn to? And will my void ever be filled?

Until one day.....a few months after the divorce is final,  I come back to my desk and found this book on my chair, someone had left me a bible. And to this day I still do not know who gave it to me. I had read it when I was younger, maybe like 8.I had gone to church from an infant to about 10 years of age. I had heard of Jesus, but who was He really? I know it was Jesus that landed that book there. I started reading it and didn't know what I was reading. I started with Genesis the first book, that's how you read books with the first chapter....and put it right back down these people were worse than I was. I was not finding hope here. Someone told me to read John first.....and that's when I read about Jesus, a Savior who would remove all my sins and love me for me.

I started searching for a church in the begining of 2000. I went to all kinds of differnt churches. I could not find one I liked. So I prayed and I didn't know what I was praying for. I just said "God which church do you want me to go to? because these churchs are just a little weird." This is my last attempt and I'm done searching. So I opened up the phone book found the last 2 churches in Henderson that I hadn't tried, and I had already gone to a baptist church so I decided to try out Calvary Chapel. It had a nice ring to it, and I had never been to one yet. My best friend had told me she goes to one in California. So I said that's the one. And on Easter of 2000, the Lord spoke to me. I didn't know it at the time, but that's what He was doing. But how did the Pastor know all that I was going through. How did he know me, he was telling my story. God knew me and God used him that day to speak to me. At the end of that service he did an altar call, and I raised my hand and accepted Jesus in my heart. I did many more times after that too, just to make sure I was saved. LOL. I was hesistant, I didn't know what I was getting myslef into. But I wanted this Jesus he was talking about. I wanted to be loved unconditionally. I think this guy is going to fill my void, I feel parts of it being filled already. And I have been there for the past 12 years now.....

To Be Continued.......



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Be Reconciled

 The Bible says in I Corinthians 7:10-11

10 To the married I give this command (not I, but the Lord): A wife must not separate from her husband. 11 But if she does, she must remain unmarried or else be reconciled to her husband. And a husband must not divorce his wife.

It was 8.5 years ago that the Lord gave that verse to me, when I was baffled at His command to me. The Lord had told me to ask my Husband back for a second chance. I told the Lord He was crazy, I even asked Him "Do you remember Lord, what we went through?" Are you sure Lord!! I fought the Lord on this for about a week. And it was then that I was reading in I Corinthians that I came across this scripture. I gasped AAAAWWWWWppppp! Lord, you are asking me to do this. And I remember Him clearly saying "TRUST ME". So I began to walk by faith, and not by sight. It was then that I realized that God was really calling me back to my husband. We had been divorced for about 3 years, I was a baby Christian about 2.5 years old at the time. I had never heard the Lord speak to me, but only once before and that was the day I got baptized I was lost trying to get to the house to get baptized and I couldn't remember if it was left or right and He said left and I went left and I got there just fine.

God knew what He was doing, and this verse had confirmed it for me. I am soooo very very thankful that God gave me that command and that I obeyed. My marriage has been way better than the first and lasted way longer. I hope and pray that I can encourage just one marriage to not go through what we went through, it will all be worth it. All the pain, all the sorrow to encourage you to not do it. God hates divorce, I have scripture to prove it.

"I hate divorce," says the LORD God of Israel, "and I hate a man's covering himself with violence as well as with his garment," says the LORD Almighty. So guard yourself in your spirit, and do not break faith.

Malachi 2:16 NIV

This is clear that God Hates divorce and he doesnt want us to seperate.

"So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate."

Matthew 19:6

If you are struggling in your marriage, DO NOT GIVE UP HOPE!  God knows exactly what you are going through and will see you through it. Have faith of a mustard seed.

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

Matthew 17:20 NIV

God is soo good, He knows exactly what you need when you need it and will only give you what you can handle. If it seems impossible remember all things are possible with Him.

27 Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God."

Mark 10:27

Mark 10:27 was my verse for our re-marriage. And it is so true, we are a living testimony to that. What I thought was impossible, God made possible.

On  April 13, we will be celebrating our 8 years of re-marriage. He has truely restored what the Locusts have eaten. Thank you Jesus!!

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My Life Verse

"But Jesus looked at them and said, "With men it is impossible, but not with God; for with God all things are possible." Mark 10:27

A “life verse” is a verse or passage in the Bible that is significant to you. It may define your life, give you inspiration or direction, be something that you hang onto as you face difficult circumstances, or it could even be the passage of scripture that brought you to a belief in Jesus Christ.

This is a verse that is on my wall in my living room. To remind me that with God all things are possible, even the restoration of my marriage and of my life. It was our wedding verse, almost 8 years ago. To share, in brief, 13 yrs ago was when I met my amazing husband, shortly after we got married and 2 months later we were pregnant with our first baby girl. One and half years later we were divorced, we were not walking a life with the Jesus. During this time I accepted Jesus Christ into my life. And my life had changed completely and forever.

 I am sure my parents thought that was impossible as well, but it became possible. I probably gave them the worst time out of all the kids {all 8 of us}.  I even thought this was impossible for me...me becoming a Christian???? I so was not worthy of anything, I had failed big time, I was living an empty life, searching to fill that emptiness in my heart.

 Fast forward to three years later, I accepted Jesus into my heart, it was Easter of 2000.  God had told me to ask my Husband back for a second chance. I thought God are you sure.....did you forget what we had went through, there is no way possible this is impossible??!?  And I distinctly remember talking with a friend a week earlier telling her that if we ever got to back together that, that totally was going to be the Lord because there was no way we would ever. But I think God probably chuckled at that moment and said " for with Me All things are possible my princess."

It was then that I stepped out in faith and scared to death, but trusted fully in God. I did not know what was to come, but God knew and well the rest as they say is Histroy, we are still a work in progress. We have been re-married for almost 8 years this April. It's been a long road, a narrow one, there are days that I ask God are you sure. But He reminds me that this is His perfect plan and will for me."For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." Jere 29:11. Somedays are hard and some days are just soo amazing. Life isn't perfect, it will never be until we are with the Jesus. God is sooo good!!!

If you are struggling today in your marriage or are divorced or thinking about {don't do it}, just be encouraged and know that ..."for with God all things are possible." Even the things you think are impossible God can make possible. He is the creator of the universe, He knows all things, He sees all things, He is all things. If He can make blind men see and dead man rise, he can restore a marriage, a life as He did mine. He will restore what the locusts have eaten. He can do anything that is in His soverign will. Just pray, seek the Lord on every situation, decision, and everything.

Walking with Jesus, the King of Kings!
Adrienne

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My Faith Box

I am so Praising God right now!!!! {Squeal, Squeal} I just won this awesome "My Faith Box". Go check out Good Morning Gals  . It is another encouraging website that I've found.

{Taken from Women Living Well }What is the My Faith Box? I’m so glad you asked!


Basically it’s a box that you can decorate and place special keepsakes in, BUT the exciting part is what’s inside the box! Inside is the My Faith Book.

What I LOVE about the My Faith Book is how as a parent you can record your child’s faith journey! From birth until age 18, you can record each year how you are praying for your child and create an intentional plan of passing down your faith to your child. Each year contains areas for you to record special memories, what they are learning about God, what they are praying for, favorite bible stories etc.


As your child gets older, he/she can then start filling in each year. The book also contains areas for photos as well as areas for older children to personally write about their journey thus far with God. What I love is this book helps create a history of your child’s faith that they can turn back to in later years.

The My Faith Book is a tool that can be used to help them remember the faithfulness of God as they flip through the pages and see how God has answered prayers that were written down years before.


Last Week I entered a contest at Women Livng Well and had forgotten that I had entered it. Being a Christian Scrapper I was squealing when I saw this. It's such an awesome book. I can't wait to get it, thank you JESUS and Angela at Good Morning Girls.

God Bless you,
Adrienne









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Under Construction....

Hi!

It's been awhile since I've posted, exactly one month and one day to be exact. I can say that God has been doing some amazing things in my life. If the Lord leads I will share, but for now just wanted to give a little update. I'm still alive, Praise God. He is not done with me yet. I love that little saying that goes " Be patient with me God is not done with me yet". I just feel that my season in life right now is "Under Construction, sorry for any inconveiance this may cause". It is soo good to be in God's prefect will. But also to surrender to His will and not mine. But No Matter what I go through in this journey I'm going to love Jesus all the way home. I LOVE You JESUS!! Thank you for loving me, and dieing for me. If you can take a listen to the new song by Kerrie Roberts "No Matter What". I love this song and can't wait to have it on here soon.

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God Bless you all!



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Workmanship and God's love for you

"For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them." Ephesians 2:10 NKJ
I love this verse, we are God's workmanship {the product or result of labor and skill; work executed}. It reminds me that I am His creation, His work. We all are. This morning during my devotions I was reading Romans 8 {I love this chapter!!!}. And the Lord just spoke to me immensly of how much He loves us. So much that He didn't spare His only begotten Son, but delivered Him up for us all {Romans 8:32}. That just blew my mind. I have 2 daughters I could not even phathom sparing their lifes for someone I don't know. But it's amazing what God has done for us. Here's a few things I thought I'd share with you, this is what He spoke to me about. Praying that this will bless and encourage you. If you are going through struggles today or you don't feel loved. Just read Romans 8 and it will remind and encourage you of how much God loves us.

"There is no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus who walk according to the spirit."{Romans 8:1}

The Law of the Spirit of Jesus Christ has made us free from the law of sin and death {vs 2}

For those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit, but if you live according to the flesh your mind will be on things of the flesh. So live according to the Spirit not the flesh.

This part really spoke to me: So those who are in the flesh cannot please God {Romans 8:8}. This part really spoke to me because I tend to get in my flesh allot. In the past I was easily tempted to be in it. Lately the Lord has been helping me in this area. And this is a great filter for the next time I feel I'm getting in my flesh. If you get in your flesh, you are not pleasing to God. And right now I want to please Him and not my flesh. No more excuses for me to stay in my flesh or desire to be in it. Praise God! Its simple: Flesh = No pleasure to the Lord, Being in the Spirit = Pleasure to God. It also goes on to say in verse 9, that but you are not in the flesh but in the spirit, if indeed the spirit of God dwells in you. Now if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he is not His. Wow...I want to be in His Spirit!!! Die Flesh, Die!!!!

"For if you live according to the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. Crucify your flesh daily!! {Matt16:24}

For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you recieved the spirit of adoption of who we cry out "Abba father". The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God. {vs 15-16). I just thought what was really cool, that His spirit bears witness to ours. That's amazing, I'm a visual person and I visualized that....amazing! The other part that was really cool was that we are heirs of God and then joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him we may also be glorified together. I can not wait for that time to be glorified with Him. That is going to be amazing.

What we suffer now, will be nothing compared to the glory which shall be revealed in us. Again another visual for me, Glory...Glory Hallelujah!!!

This next part is my favorite. Verse 26 through the end...The Spirit helps in our weaknesses {Praise God we don't do this alone}. For we do not know what we should pray { I totally related to this part sometimes I don't know what to pray...but} for as we ought, but the Spirit {this is the amazing part} Himself makes intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. I think if I heard the utters, and to just think about it brings me to tears and to my knees. God is right there making intercessions for us right now, He crys out on our behalf. Isn't that amazing, that just uuuuuuhhhhh blows my mind. Jesus Loves us soooooooo much. It goes on to say in the next verse 27,Now He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He makes intercesion for the saints according to the will of God. And heres a favorite of many {mine too} And we know that all {not some, not this or that but ALL} things work together for good to those who love God, those who are called according to His purpose. AMen, thank you Jesus!!For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethen. I want to write the whole chapter hear, but you can go and read it. It's an amazing chapter, so many nuggets in here.

He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall HE not with Him also freely give us all things. Wow!!! vs 34 Who is he who condemns? It is Christ who died and furthermore is also risen, who is even at the right hand of God, who also makes intercession for us. Again here is it, He is making intercession for us right now. How amazing is that, we have someone who cares for us, loves us and prays for us!

vs 35-39. Who shall seperate us from the Love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written: "For Your sake we are killed all day long; We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.". I automatically visualized all those sleep that await being slaughtered at the slaughter house. Growing up we raised cows, goats and 1 sheep. Our Dad would take us to watch the cows get slaughtered { it was a fieldtrip for us}, I will not tell you how it goes down. But it was not exciting, it was sad. These animals don't even know whats coming and then boom there gone, in an instant. But there is hope, it goes on to say in verse 37: "Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to seperate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Wow, that's just awesome, nothing can seperate us from the Love of Jesus Christ {His death, His intercession, His crys for us}. He is on our side, right there next to the Father interceeding for us. Don't you just feel so loved by Him.

I pray that you have a blessed day knowing that Jesus Christ loves you and is interceeding for you. He wouldn't have died on that cross for you if He didn't love you. God loves us, He would not have spared His Son if He didn't. HE LOVES YOU, and don't ever forget that!!! Nothing can seperate you from His Love. Remember when you are in your flesh you are not pleasing God. But He forgives us when we are in it, just repent and ask for forgiveness.

God Bless you!
A





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Saying "Good Byeeee" to 6th grade!

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The Lord has totally blessed us with the most precious, beautiful, smart and funny daughter anyone could ask for. Yes, my 6th grader is now a 7th grader. Yesterday was her last day of 6th grade and we also had our Homeschool Promotion at church too. It turned out way better than I ever could have imagined. It was a lot of fun and such a blessing. Each family went up and handed their child a certificate and said something really sweet about them. And each family had such precious things to say to their children. It was amazing!

It's been a long road for us. When Toria started homeschool this year I was still working, for the first month that she was back to school. Her grades were not improving and I killed me, I prayed and cried out to God to keep me home to help her. Shortly after He answered my prayers. And for the next couple of months we would school for 6-8 hours a day. It was a rough, rewarding road. One that I would do over and over again. The Lord really was doing a work in both of us, for me it was self-scraficing. He was showing me how to do that and what that was and what it looked like. I have to be honest it was rough, there were days that I asked the Lord "are you sure"? I wanted to give up so many times, but when I did He lifted me up. I also was blessed with some great sisters in the Lord and dear sweet sweet sisters to encourage me along the way.

My girl went from hating math to liking it. I have to be honest I am glad that we are on summer break. I can't wait to see what the Lord is going to do next. Baby girl, I love you and you did an awesome job! You kept the good fight, you finished this race. Soon it will be time for a new one, but not to fret The Lord is with you wherever you shall go.

Galatians 6:9 NKJ
And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.

2 Thessalonians 3:13 NKJ
But as for you, brethren, do not grow weary in doing good.

Proverbs 22:6 NKJ
Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.

God Bless you!
A



Saved By Grace Blog

Bloggie I'm back!!

Well it's been a hit and miss for me blogging. And I am back, this will be a place where I can share my creative side and in hopes to minister to those that need it, in a fun, creative way. Please leave me comments {nice ones please}, and if you don't have anything nice to say best not to say it all. Mama taught me that growing up. I am hoping to post one new thing a week {don't hold me to it though, God comes first}. I am in prayer, that when I do come on, that it's Lord lead.

I did have a facebook and recently closed that account. Lord had just been telling me to get rid of it. Everyone's conviction are different. Honestly, I just spent to much {wasted} time on there. I want to be able to further God's kingdom in every possible way I can. I think this is a great outlet for that. Alright, I will talk to you next time.

Blessings!
ADrienne


Saved By Grace Blog

Victory in Christ!!!

Well all I have to say is Wow!!!! It is amazing at what the Lord has done and will continue to do in my life. And I just want to share with you that Jesus Loves you....God Loves you. He is soo amazing and I am just in awe, I am just speechless at Him and His creation. I used to get so fearful of dieing, I used to get anxiety attacks and I had a fear of dieing. But the Lord just really delivered and showed me this weekend that I have nothing to fear for He is with me. My greatest fear is getting in a horrible accident and dieing. And I recieved my verse for the weekend which ended with ...."I help you in time of trouble." And that really stuck out at me this weekend.

Even before I left for the retreat satan had already entered my thoughts of leaving and not coming home. He was instilling fear into to me that I might die in an accident this weekend. The fear came over me, he even said "put a little message on your white board to your family that you love them just in case you don't see them again, they will have something to remember you by." I feared, but I didn't pray, I accepted that thought. Even when I got the verse I almost felt that the verse confirmed it. I feared even more, but while at the retreat I tucked that thought away. Until, it was time to leave then that fear overcame me again and satan whispered you better make sure you give your mom a hug and say good bye to her in case you don't see her again, in case you get in accident.

The fear just came over me and I prayed Lord....and as soon as I said Lord then these words came to me......Fear not for I AM with you where ever you go. Tears filled my eyes and I knew that I had nothing to fear for the Lord GOD was with me and I left in peace.

I suffered from panic/anxiety attacks all my life. I've always been a nervous pooch. I would even shake like those little chihuahua's. It was so unbearable sometimes I couldn't talk right my whole body would shake when I was really nervous or when fear came over me. It was something that I thought that I would have to live with forever, for the rest of my life. I would get nots in my stomach I even believe I had ulcers because of it. My jaw would clatter together, it was almost as if I had the chills.

But my God, my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ delivered me from that this weekend. As soon as He spoke those precious words to me, I knew that I had nothing to fear for the Lord is with me all the days of my life. Even on my way home satan tried to put another thought in my head, I had said praise the Lord we made it home. But he said your not home yet, you just made it to your car. The fear started to creep in but I remembered those soft spoken words that the Lord had spoke to me and I said no satan the Lord is with me, get behind me. And before I would let those fears set in. but not today, Jesus conquered my fear.

The Lord has brought me a long way from fear, fear of dieing, fear of the unkown, fear of losing my kids, and my head. He saved me by shedding His blood for my sins. How amazing is that? Do you know anyone that would do that for you? No.....I know I don't but I do know one man that did and His name is Jesus. God can do miracles, God can Heal you from anything, not somethings but ALL things. God can take what is broken and restore it better than what it was before. My marriage testifies to that.

God is an awesome God. At the retreat they showed this amazing video called "How Great is our God" with Louie Giglio. I want to tell you that it changed me. God changed my heart, God delivered me from this ungodly fear that I had and changed that fear to fear Him. And by watching these videos you will see how and what I mean by fearing Him. It is a good fear. It's not some scary fear, it's an amazing fear. I truely have found Victory in Christ!


Your life is a miracle, and the creator of the universe knows you by name, He knows the number of every hair that is on your head.

He's big enough to breathe out stars, yet intricate enough to fashion together the trillions of cells that make up every facet of who you are. The God who spoke the universe into existence made you, too, and knows everything about you. From the smallest molecule to the situation you find yourself in right now, He's aware of your circumstances and intimately acquainted with everything you do. And He cares about you and promises to carry you through.

That's where we find hope in the midst of the darkest places in life. The journey often complicated and painful, filled with confusion and chaos. Yet, the cross of Christ reveals God's promise to preserve and restore you no matter what the circumstance. He will hold onto you and hold you together, giving strength to those who hope in His unfailing love.

He is the everlasting God!

[Recorded on the HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD tour]

I pray that the Lord would touch your heart this day. I pray that He would lift those veils from your eyes. I pray that the Lord would reveal himself to you in these videos. I pray that He would deliver you from and sins or bondage that you may have. I pray that the Lord would lift you up like eagles wings and restore you. In Jesus Name AMEN!!!

There are 5 amazing clips. You will have to watch all of them to get the full effect and make sure that you put it in full screen. Also, I wanted to let you know that you will be blown away!!!! God bless!

Oh, one more thing. Make sure to put the little Mp3 player on pause. You will get double feed and not be able to listen to it properly.
Adrienne


Part 1 - How Great is our God Tour


Part 2 - How Great is our God Tour click this little box to view it in full screen


Part 3 - How Great is our God Tour


Part 4 - How Great is our God Tour


Part 5 - How Great is our God Tour



You can get these videos all on one DVD at your church or on -line just look up under "How Great is our God" Tour


Here is the website
http://www.268generation.com/2.0/splash1.htm

Woman's Retreat!!!

Well I am just soo totally excited for this weekends woman's retreat. WE had our woman's bible study tonight and the Lord just is totally preparing me for what He has for me and I believe for all the woman that are going.



Tonight, we watched our video of Nancy Leigh Demoss (we are studying the book of Ruth) and she talked about having a Moab in our life? And basically when Naomi and her family first went to Moab it really wasn't what the Lord had for them there, so Naomi realized that and moved back home, well first she repented and then moved back. And the question that was asked tonight was what is your Moab, what is taking your focus off of the Lord tonight? And that just really stuck with me because I haven't really pondered on that lately. And I know the Lord is going to really show that to me this weekend as I spend some quality time with Him.


Lord I want more of you, living breath of life come fill me up. Lord I need more of you living water rain down on me. I am hungry Lord, I am hungry for more of you.

I have really noticed that I've been dry so thirsty and hungry for the Lord. But yet, I hadn't really done anything about it, until now. I took the first step and got to bible study so that it could lead me to seek the Lord more. Tonight the Lord just really spoke to me about my priorities and about putting things before him. He has been revealing that to me lately and I pray that this weekend I am able to just go before Him and Repent and to be able to just go home with him and eat the manna that He has for me. And drink His water that I so desperatly need.

I ask that you would keep us woman lifted up in prayer this weekend that the Lord would just take this time to really speak to us and to minister to our hearts. That we would be able to just sit still and eat and drink Him. That we would be quit, be still and let Him minister to our hearts, to our minds to our souls. I also pray for the husbands that you would put your Holy hand upon them, give them extra ounces of strength, patience, mercy and grace and for a hedge of protection around the kids that they would have a sweet blessed time with their dads or who ever will be caring for them.

Thank you and so I will not be posting anything this weekend and possibly not until Tuesday. So God Bless and have a great weekend!!!

In His Love,
Adrienne

Hello!!!

It's been a while since I last posted. It's been a little hectic, but fun!!! I had a busy week, last week. And this week is pretty mellow. This weekend is the Woman's Retreat and I am so getting excited!!! I am totally looking forward to seeing what the Lord is going to show, reveal and teach me. I don't know if I'm ready for that, but I am totally putting my trust in Him, I know it's for the good. I so need it though!!

Well this first day of the week is FALLLLLL!!!! Yeah!!! I love fall!!! I decorated my house a tad. So, I got that done, next is to get out my winter jackets and sweaters and clean them up and wait patiently for the cold weather to come!!!!

I also started the Woman's Bible Study up again. It's been about 1 or 2 years since I last went at church. I totally miss it and am eagar to learn more about Ruth. Which by the way is the greatest love story in the Bible, besides falling in love with Jesus!!!

The one thing that really spoke to me, was the fact that the woman in Jesus' geneology. There backgrounds were not perfect, they were total sinners, total heathens. And yet, God still loved them. And it made me think of where I came from and the lifestyle I used to live. Praise the Lord that he drug me out of the muck and the myre!!! Thank you Jesus!! All glory and honor to you.

It totally confirmed it in my heart that the Lord totally and completely loves me, just as I am. I don't have to have this major degree, or go to a certain church, or wear certain clothes, or drive a certain car, or own certain purses, or live in a uppty up area, or live in a nice house. All the things of the World, the Lord does not care 'bout. But He cares about me, little ol' me. Me with my baggage and my past sins. He cares and loves ME!!! And you!!! And forgives us of all of our sins. Thank you Jesus!!

Is that awesome or what? To think that the creator of this universe, the Lord God Almighty. Loves me!! Loves you!!! I just am.....it just......it just takes my breath away. That someone could Love me sooo much that He would send His Son His only Begotton Son might I add, Jesus, to die on the cross for my sins. My sins!!

When I am worshipping at church, my mind goes back to the movie the passion and the part when he's is getting beat to death. I think Lord you did all that for me. And the movie I know doesn't do justice for what He really did. But man.....it makes me think it breaks my heart, and ask why Lord, why do we sin? With all that you went through for us and we still sin. But, I know we are not perfect and we won't be until we get to Heaven. I can't wait for that glorified body and to walk on the streets of Gold. Lord can I have the french cottage room, please??

Well, anyway, that's what I am getting from the study. I just love it!!! It's like eating a cake with tons of frosting on it. I can totally sit there and eat it and eat it. That's how I feel when I am learning about the Lord. He is awesome, he is way cool and he just totally Rocks!!!!

God Bless you and may you have a unbelievably blessed week. You know when you are facing trials this week, know that the Lord is facing them right there with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you. Amen!!!

In His Love,
Adrienne

Blessings!!!

Well it's been awhile since I've blogged. I've been a busy woman. Well the Lord has totally blessed me this last week. My husband surprised me last weekend with a surprise b-day party!!! And that was sooo awesome, and then the Lord has just been showering me with gifts the whole week and then for my real b-day we went out with some friends for dinner and breakfast and more breakfast and then I had another b-day party with my honey's family and that was sweet!!!

God you are soo good, this has been the best b-day yet and I will forever remember, thank you Jesus!!!

So this week was my last week on the prism weightloss program. And it has totally changed my eating lifestyle. I've been able to fit in clothes that I haven't been able to for a couple of years, which is totally sweet, thank you Jesus for given me the strength to do this. Thank you to my accountablity partner for helping me along the way. You were a big part in it, so thank you sooo much!!!

This week is VBS (Vacation Bible School) and wow it was a crazy fun filled day!!! I'm exhausted!!! I came home, ate and took a nap.

I am also going to start to homeschool my girl. It should be fun, exciting and a new journey in our walk. Lord please give me the knowledge that I will need, Husband too. And just give us the strength to do this. I just lift up this next journey that you have before us. Thank you for opening the door for us in that. In Jesus name....AMEN!!!

Alright, well it might be until next week that I blog, but that's all that's going on for now. I shall blog at a later date!! Until then!!

In His Love!!!!
Adrienne

Hello!!!

Wow, what a great week I've been having. The Lord is sooo good to me, even when I don't deserve it. I had an absolutely blessed weekend at church. We had our scrapbook weekend all day Friday and all day Saturday. I didn't get much done, but I did have sweet, sweet fellowship with my friends and sisters in the Lord. It is nice every now and then to get out of the house and fellowship with girlfriends. Thank you Lord for all the wonderful girlfriends you have put in my life. You know my heart on that and I just thank you for answering my prayers and desires of my heart. Thank you JESUS!!!!

My honey was also blessed to go to Cali, while I was busy scrappin' to see the Dallas Cowboys train in oxnard. I will try to post some pics at a later date. It was pretty cool...My daughter got to get a few autographs and they also stopped by the beach. The pictures are breathtaking!!! Thank you Honey!!! I love you!!! Mwah!!!! Drewl!!! Drewl!!! LOL!!!

Ok, well until next time. Nothing exciting is really happening right now, except I got a sinus infection and have really bad allergies they call it rhinitis (I spelled it wrong oh well). Sounds like I have a bad disease or something. I'm on anti's and should be better in a few days. Nothing major I caught it just in time. THank you Jesus!!! Love you!!

TTYS!!!

~A

What a week!!!!

Wow!!! It's been a while since I posted anything. Well last week was a trail and error type of week. I had alot of things going, still doing the diet and then it was my first week home, still trying to get a groove going (almost got one). On Tuesday we went with some friends to watch a free movie and that was our first time and we had fun!!! I would do that again and the plus was that it was free. And during the week I had bought the girls some crafts to do and you'll see the pics below. I got this really cute plaster kit for $5 at walmart for Veronica to do. She was soo excited. She is very hand's on and loves to things herself.....she's a big girl now what do you expect. LOL!!! So these are pictures of her making her plaster alphabets.
It looks like she's tasting it, but she is just amazed at what the plaster looks like.
Here is the finished product. I helped her pour them too. This was a way cool project for her.
And here is Victoria, I got her a decorate your own purse kit for $5 too, at Walmart. She had fun with that.
This is her hard at work, making her pretty purse bag. I forgot to take a finished product pic, she finished like the next day. I will post that at another time. Well thanks for stopping by, I have so much more to post.

Until next time!!

In His Love,
Adrienne

1st Day of Staying Home

Well today was the first day of being a stay-at-home Mom, still feels kind of weird typing it. I know.......that..........well......I wasn't fully prepared for today. I think I prayed for patience, during this time that I am to be home, and at this time I prayed that I thought oh no....what did you just pray for. Well patience is what the Lord is teaching me. I never knew a 2.5 year old could scream so loud that your ear drums would ring so much!!!!! LOL!!!!! I thought today I might very well lose my mind.

Lord you are good and I know it will only get better and this is only a season and this too shall pass!!!!! Thank you Jesus!!!

I had been praying for the past 5-6 years to be at home. There were times when I did, short periods, and I loved it. But I was also happy to be back at work. I know it's crazy.....LOL!! I have to get into a routine. I am one of those people that needs organization, to do lists, and a routine. Otherwise I am lost, I need direction, and guidance. I was pretty much lost today, trying to find my new stay-at-home mom self. That was hard......I think she was hidding I think she was even fearful to come out, but I had to keep reminding her the Lord is with us.

So, tonight I got smart I made a scheduled (I know the Lord can intervine when he wants to) to- do list for tomorrow. It will help me to stay on track and keep me organzied, otherwise I'll get lost again and that's not good. I don't exactly know what type I am, maybe the "A" type. Where can I get a test for that? Pastor and his wife are always talking about types and I'm curious to find out what I am.

Oh, and I started a 2 day cleanse today. My honey went and got some for us. I drink this juice 4x's a day. He got it at GNC, it's called the complete cleansing kit or something like that. It tastes pretty good, kind of like the V8 juice with veggies and fruits. Well that's all this stuff is anyway.

By the way, The Prism is going well.....starting to get used to writing my stuff down and just learning how to eat right again. I do have to say that I lost 2lbs the first week, I found out from Doctor. Today is the start of my 3rd week on it; so a total of 4 weeks to go. Can not wait to see the results and then maintain those results.

Well I must be going, just wanted to catch up a little on the blog world.

Today my flesh words for the day were " I can't do this, I can't do this"!!!! But the Holy Spirit would say...Yes, you can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens you. Phil 4:13 So until next time.

May the Lord bless you, keep you, may He make His face shine upon you and give you peace.

In His Love,
Adrienne

Honoring My Parents.

" Honor your Father and your Mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you." Exodus 20:12




My Dad - Alfredo or Fred or Grandpa/Popps!




I can remember when I was a little girl and waiting for my daddy to come home from work. That was my favorite part of the day, days then seemed like weeks. When he would come home we had a ritual, I would help him take off his work boots, I would unlace every single whole. I knew that my Dad worked really hard for all of us, and that was the least I can do, besides listening.

I also remember when I was the only girl for a short while before my little sisters came and my oldest was away in Texas. I have to say I really was a Daddy's girl. He would take me shopping and buy me whatever I wanted of course my Mom hated that, but I loved it.

I can say that my Father is a Hero. When we were younger we lived in Ontario, Ca and on a busy street one afternoon on a Sat we were playing in the living room and all of a sudden we here a loud "BOMB!!!!" I look out the window and there was an accident right in front of our house. There was a small truck over turned with smoke coming out. It was scary......but what stuck with me was that my Dad was the first one to put on his work boots and jet outside to help. He always gave when needed. That's what I love about him. I still remember that Hero look in his eyes to go out and try to save the people from that truck that was almost on fire.

I remember feeling scared for him, thinking that he would get hurt. I prayed for him and I saw him from a distance help a littl boy get out of the truck, but he tried and tried so desperatly to get the driver out, they accutally needed to use the jaws of life to get the driver out. But I remember my Dad using all that he had to try to get that person out. He was trying to save their life and to me he has always been my Hero.

Dad you always gave me good advice especially in marriage, buying a home and just with life in general. I know I may not have seemed like I took it but I did and it will always stick with me. You and Mom have always been there for me when I needed you. Thank you training me up and teaching me all that you knew and thank you for trying your best!!!

I know that I was not an easy teenager growing up. I want to ask for forgiveness for all the bad things and hard times that I put you threw. All the running away and ditching school. I am truely and deeply sorry for all of that. I was really dumb about my choices I made. Thank you for protecting me, even though I didn't see it at the time, I see it now. I totally understand now why you where so hard on me. I know now that it wasn't because you wanted me to have a horrible life, but because you loved & cared for me and for my life and you were trying so desperatly (as I would do the same with my girls) to keep from all the evil things in the world. So I ask that if you would please forgive me for not making the right choices as a teenager?

I will forever love you Dad!!! Dad also know that Jesus Loves you and he is knocking at the door to your heart. Will you answer?

Love you Daddy!!

Love Adrienne (aka: Pepita)



My Momma - Irma

Mom, I can remember all the wonderful things you did for us kids, I don't know how you did it (by the grace of God, I'm sure)? You showed me how to cook, how to clean, how to take care of those kids, because you had lots of them, 8 to be exact.

I remember when you taught me how to make tamales, tortillas and other good mexican dishes. Those stuck with me. I remember how you used to put my hair in piggy tales, that well I didn't like, but now that I look at the pictures...I looked pretty cute. So thanks for that, oh and thank you for buying me all those beautiful dresses. I used to love to wear dresses and dress up and play with dolls.

My mom is my Hero too. Raising us kids on a budget was not easy. It was tough, we had alot of tough times together, but you always got us threw them and I praise you for that. I remember the time when it was Christmas and we were so poor but you still managed to get us gifts and I thought you were always amazing for that. You never seized to amaze me!!

Mom, I too would like to ask you for forgiveness for all the tough times I put you through. I really did not make the right choices and I thank you for keeping your feet down. For standing up for what you believe in, for not giving in to me and for not giving up on me. You showed me you loved me, even though I thought you hated me (that was Satan, I know now). I understand now why you raised me the way you did, it was out of Love and I just want to thank you and honor you for doing that and sticking to it. It paid off I hope and pray.

I love you Mamma!!!
Love your daughter in Christ Jesus!!
Adrienne



I am so blessed and honored to have the 2 of you as my parents, the Lord knew what he was doing by hooking us up together. I wouldn't have asked for any other parents, you guys did an awesome job with what you had and I love you greatly for that. Thank you for sticking in through the good times and the bad. See I didn't turn out so bad did I?

I love you Dad & Mom

In Honor of you for loving me!!!

Your daughter in Christ Jesus
Adrienne
XOXOXXOXOXO

Birthday Month

The Lord has just totally blessed us with great friends.
Psalm 16:3 LB “The godly people in the land are my true heroes! I take pleasure in them.”

Proverbs 17:17 LB “A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in time of need.”

1 John 1:7 “But if we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship one with another.”

So this month we were able to go to a birthday party every weekend of April and continuing on. What fun Mountain View has been!!! And what a blessing!!!

Thanks to all of you who invited us, we are always tickled pink to get invited to birthday parties; our favorite!!! Here are some of the pic's that I would love to share with you!! I love joyful moments and sharing them.

I Corinthians 10:31 LB “Whatever you eat or drink or whatever you do, you must do all for the glory of God.”

Ps. 126:3 CEV “And so we celebrated because the Lord had indeed worked miracles for us.”

Phil. 4:4 Message Bible “Celebrate God all day, every day. I mean, revel in Him!”

Psalm 126:2-3 NKJV “Then our mouth was filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing…The Lord has done great things for us and we are glad.”

This is Veronica blowing out her little friends birthday cake, she was determined to help her blow out her candle!! So cute!!

Proverbs 9:11 LB “Wisdom will multiply your days and add years to your life.”

Proverbs 15:3 “A merry heart maketh a cheerful countanance.”

Job 8:21 “Till He fill thy mouth with laughing , and thy lips with rejoicing.”

Psalm 94:19 “In the multitude of my thoughts within me thy comforts delight my soul.”

Nehemiah 12:27 “…to keep the dedication with gladness, both with thanksgiving, and with singing…”

Proverbs 17:8 “A gift is a precious stone in the eyes of him that hath it: whithersoever it turneth, it prospereth.”